Tomorrow would have been my late husband’s 67th birthday. He’s been in my thoughts a lot lately….I’m not sure why these reflective times happen when they do….maybe they’re my way of grieving....even now. When Joel died over six years ago I felt numb and a little lost; but I also felt a huge responsibility to pull it together and keep everything organized. I didn’t want anything falling through the cracks because I was falling apart. The ‘organized’ me took over and in the process cushioned me from the great loss I just had. Sometimes I feel like this big, old house is swallowing me up; and without him here to banter with and check-in on from time to time…these rooms feel pretty vacant lately. Lord knows we didn’t spend every waking hour attached at the hip, but I always knew he was around doing his thing while I was doing mine…. and I could always touch base when I needed to….and vise-versa.
Joel was an enigma….a character…..sometimes you just loved him to death; and other times you wanted to wring his neck.
He loved:
His family, and felt great pride in his kids
Sailing, sailing, sailing, and everything that surrounded it….especially the camaraderie of all his sailing friends
John Wayne movies….and could be found with tears running down his face while watching one
Football
History and famous battles and wars
Watching children learn…and being a part of it
Wine, beer and his ‘drinkie-winkies’ (cocktails)
Shrimp and gyros plates
Books….any and all; including his family’s set of World Book Encyclopedias when he was growing up. He had a photographic memory and could actually tell you the page an entry was on. He read many books over and over again, especially those that made him cry.
News and commentary programs…especially ones you could call into with questions or comments….and he often did
A medium rare steak and a good cup of coffee
Playing bridge with friends...and later on the computer
The computer…for business and pleasure...loved Flight Simulator
Oxford button-down shirts
Wingtip shoes
Pizza, potatoes, and pork roast
Bargains….of any kind
Politics and debating them with anyone who would listen…..and those who wouldn’t….it didn’t matter
Good music
Ice cream
Salad, hot peppers on beef sandwiches, and barbecued ribs
Smoking
Playing trivia games
Making concoctions in the kitchen
Taking things apart and then putting them back together again
Fixing and repairing things around the house….cheaply
Duct tape (refer to above)
Magic tricks…and did many himself
Listening to his kids laugh….and me too.
He hated:
Paperwork….lucky me
When there was no one around to debate with….but there was always the phone
Broccoli and cauliflower…and peas
Being reminded to do something…or as he thought of it…. ‘nagging’
Injustice
‘One-ups-man-ship’
Doing taxes…and worse yet….sending them our money
Doctors and dentists
Being interrupted during a good show
Cleaning his desk
Wiping up messes
Hospitals...visiting or staying
Yard work, hence we had a landscape service for many years….and I still do
Arrogance
Buying a new car; which is why we had so many used ones
Sassing back; which is why our kids never did it
Shaving on weekends….weekends were for sailing, who needs to shave
Bad grammar and mispronunciation
He was:
Never too busy or too old to learn something new
A hard worker and a good provider, but for a time when he was out of work….and a little lost
Bright….really bright
Stubborn and self-healing
A big softie inside
A procrastinator
Intuitive
Competitive on family game nights
Good at selling things, but didn’t really love it
Hard to walk away from when he wanted your attention
Friendly and loyal
Good in a crisis
Patriotic
A Marine
Horrible about taking care of his health and sharing things that were bothering him
Someone you could ask about anything. Somehow he always knew the answer....or where to find it.
Sometimes exasperating
Sometimes exhilarating
An Aries….pretty typical one
A hockey player in his early years
A writer….a good one, with several published pieces.
A good speaker….he always had a way with words
A good friend
A loud snorer
Witty, funny...very funny
A good card player
A pretty good singer
A pretty bad dancer
He is:
Missed...and remembered ~Joy