Thinking of you Mom…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It’s been five years since you left us. 

Five years….that’s hard to believe.  But I’ve learned to accept a lot of things in the past few years that I never planned on adjusting to quite yet.  Your passing... less than seven months after Joel, and only four months after his father, enclosed me in a state of numbness that was almost protective in some respects.  When I think back to those months of chaotic frenzy, I wonder how I got through them; but I did…and I believe largely because of you.  If there’s one sure thing I think I've gotten from you, it’s the drive to survive.

 

Sometimes I think it’s harder NOW....thinking of what we all REALLY lost in those few short months; and what the three of you have lost out on.  Weddings, births of grandchildren and great-grandchildren...and of course, family get-togethers.   You always loved those times, and thrived in that atmosphere.  Even if you weren’t feeling up-to-par, somehow you felt temporarily healed by the warmth and ambiance of our family gatherings.

 

You, Papa and Joel still seem to show up at our family times together without fail.  There is much to be said for the unique characters that you all were.  We have so many great stories to tell; and we seem to relish in the relating of all those memories.  We never seem to run out of fodder….thanks for that.

 

I can only hope you have a good view from where you are Mom so you can see what’s been going on with all of us.  I guarantee you won’t be bored.  I can promise you smiles and joy every time you stop and visit.  If you happen to run into Papa and Joel roaming around, tell them to pull up a cloud and watch for a while…and then pray they don’t get into one of their infamous debates.                 Love, Joy

Comments

[colleen]

Thanks for the smile. I enjoyed your conversation with your mom!
And yup, having great memories helps...

[Tara R.]

This was such a sweet tribute. I think about my grandparents a lot too, and what they have missed.

[janeywan]

Yesterday was three years since I lost my dad, seems like it was just yesterday. If he's been watching the fam he hasn't been bored either. It's so hard to lose someone we loved so much. I still would rather him be in heaven than to be on earth suffering so.

[Merle]

Dear Joy ~~ Lovely tribute to your dear Mom. I remember when my mother died,I used to tell myself, "Don't think" and
change what I was thinking and I got through that quite well, but after about a year I really started missing her and do
even after 33 years. I was glad she missed my cancer as she would have been so worried. Not to mention the last little effort.My Physio has given me a week off, so it's fortnightly now, so she must know I do the exercises.I am glad you liked Peter's post about blogging -I liked it too.
Take great care dear friend, Love and
Hugs, Merle.

[Grammy E]

I am sure they are watching. :)

[Peter]

You put in words the feelings we all have over the loss of a loved one Joy.

[Poohpa]

Good family time heals many wounds and bad thoughts---Love Poohps

[Poohpa]

Wrong key stroke---Poohpa