Is it possible to be both? It must be because I have very strong characteristics in both areas. I think the procrastination part of my personality drives me a little crazier and is more frustrating by far. Some things I procrastinate over BIG TIME:
~ making doctor's appointments
~ cleaning the house (a relatively new procrastination)
~ diet and exercise
~ getting rid of old and unused things
~ making appointments to get things fixed around the house
~ doing anything that doesn't seem like fun anymore....basically growing up (seriously)
I can find any number of ways to put things off if they just don't seem to suit me at the moment. The bad thing is that those 'moments' grow into MANY moments...days and weeks, etc. You know how it goes. Then of course the frustration kicks in and you start to feel that you don't have control over these areas of your life. I think as I've gotten older, I've just gotten worse...especially since I've been alone. Heck, I've only got me to answer for. Well, my kids stay on me about a few things they think need to be addressed....in a good way.
Then there's the 'other' me....Ms. Anal-Retentive. If I'm on a mission...jump in and help, or STAY OUT OF MY WAY. I think this is the person my kids remember growing up with...living with a mom that needed to be organized and on top of things; but always lighthearted and with humor. Believe me, I know the difference since my mother did not always find the humor when she was on one of her missions.
Some things that still spike my anal-retentive tendencies:
~ working on BlogHer and computer related issues
~ remembering birthdays and sending cards
~ always needing to have the house organized and neat (that's quite different from housecleaning...dusting, vaccuming, etc. where the 'procrastinator me' kicks in)
~ my car and the maintenance of it
~ preparing and getting things down logistically when my kids (or others) come in town
Oh there are more, but this brings me to my present state of anal-retentiveness....preparing for the holidays and everyone's arrival.
Every night I lay in bed thinking of ALL the things that I want or need to get accomplished before my kids and their families come in for Christmas. The more I think about it...the more things I come up with. I don't know why I'm 'over-thinking' things so much. None of my kids care about anything except coming home and enjoying being together. Honestly. But I have all these thoughts running through my head of how and where I'm going to put everyone and have them all be happy and comfortable.
As I mentioned a couple of posts ago...this house seems to have gotten smaller when EVERYONE comes home these days. And though I've pretty much got it figured out in my head how things will go, I'm still laying in my bed at night going over it all. I know it's related to the fact that I've slowed up somewhat in the last couple of years and can't do what I use to at the level that I use to do it; and I fret about getting things done. Geesh, give it up already Joy.
For weeks I've done things ahead of my normal routine for the holidays to try to stay on top of things and feel as organized as possible...such as:
~ written all of my Xmas cards out and just put them in the mail
~ wrapped ALL of my Xmas presents...and believe me that was no small chore
~ had several things looked at and repaired in the house; and am still debating about a couple more
~ made arrangements to borrow an infant carseat for baby Liv so Jory doesn't have to tote hers to the airport
Well, Joe, Jenna and I just couldn't seem to pull it together enough to haul out everything after Thanksgiving dinner this year; so Jenna and I bit the bullet and did it the day after. With a couple of Aleve in the morning to help bolster my already stiff and achy body, we managed to get it all up...except for the tree. Putting the tree up is usually Joe's job, and he will probably do it in the next couple of days when he's off of work.
While Joe and Jenna put the lights and tinsel on the tree, my job is to get all the 'gazillion' ornaments out and ready for them. Oh, and if there's one thing I've ALWAYS been anal-retentive about....it's my Xmas Tree. It's not so much how or where you place the ornaments...many are handmade and very old; but the kids know that they need to find a place for ALL of them. Considering what I've collected over the years, this is NOT so easy. Even with the fact that I've given each of my kids a box of their personal ornaments that they received as gifts from friends and relatives since they were babies...the task of finding places for everything is a daunting one. Nevertheless, this part of my holiday puzzle will hopefully be complete in the next few days.
Hey, if it takes decorating in piecemeal to get things done...so be it. I'm all for whatever it takes to get me through with my sanity in tact.