There was a time when I loved wearing those big bulky pullovers…in my younger days. For some reason I don’t have those in my wardrobe anymore. In fact, I’d have to think long and hard if I even have ANY sweaters anymore. I don’t get cold easily….even in the winter; so I suppose they haven’t been the first things I’d pick to wear. But, I do appreciate a beautiful sweater, and always comment when I see one.
I use to make a lot of sweaters. Loved knitting them…or crocheting sometimes. I spent many hours, as a young mother, with a pair of knitting needles firmly ensconced in my hands….if not baby bottles, diapers, or whole children. It was a pleasure I afforded myself….a relaxation. Like listening to music or watching movies have always been to me. Knitting was soothing. Quietly creating something that would later be found on a loved one or draped over a piece of furniture in their home. It had immediate results. I liked that…the clicking of the needles and the feel of the yarn running through my fingers to form this network of stitches. Click, click, click….a new link to be added to the puzzle. I think that’s how I thought of it….like putting a beautiful puzzle together. I love puzzles of all kinds. I LOVE jigsaw puzzles. I get the same sense of relaxation putting those together that I get from knitting. Hey, I think I have something here…VOILA, hello light bulb! I can’t remember when it was exactly that I hung up my needles and yarn, but it’s been longer than I’d like to admit. I think I got side-tracked by this little thing called LIFE…..and its first cousin, RESPONSIBILITY. A time in my life when my kids were SO damn busy and involved in EVERYTHING, that something had to go. Who needs to relax every day anyway? It’s highly overrated. When you’re young and on the go, you barely notice its absence. It’s not until later, when the pace in your life has again shifted, do you start to consider some of the things you’ve discarded or put on the “back burner” over the years. I’ve had “knitting” moments such as these.
I’m having one again. Lord knows I’ve got ALL the paraphernalia…just sitting waiting to be used again. I have no idea what I’d want to make. During one of those “knitting” moments back a few years ago, I wound up making a checkered afghan for my eldest daughter, who still loves wrapping herself up in to watch TV. I had another “moment” again a few years ago when I made slippers for all of my kids…and their significant others, for Christmas one year. My kids love these things. They all wore them until they literally fell off their feet in shreds. Hmmm, maybe we need to revisit my old slipper pattern again.
I can’t believe I’ve missed SO many perfect opportunities to get back into it. There have been a lot of births of babies in my family….MY own grandchildren for God’s sake, that I have let slip by without nary a stitch on my part. When I was younger, they would have had a whole wardrobe by now. DRATS, I feel badly about that! I guess I haven’t noticed it so much, since I’ve learned to spoil them in numerous other ways, so of course, I’m good to go.
As I write this, I’ve realized something. I don’t need any excuses to start knitting again. I don’t need a “someone” in mind to make something for. I don’t need to get back into it for any other reason, but that I love doing it. It’s pure enjoyment….like movies, music, playing cards, writing poetry, playing games, BLOGGING….or any of the other things I thoroughly enjoy and have made a part of the routine in my life. I feel like I’ve just figured out the “mystery of the universe” right here.
I’m going to round up some yarn (I still have loads of it), and I’m going to start casting those stitches. I don’t know what I’m going to start out making, but it will end up as something. I don’t know how much these older eyes will endure, but we’ll deal with that when and if we come to it. Heck, if I can spend hour upon hour in front of a computer screen every day….I think I can manage a few hours of leisurely knitting here and there.
Thanks for being a part of my therapy session everyone! Hey, I’d love to know what enjoyments, hobbies, obsessions, etc. any of you have put aside….shelved….forgotten about over the years. Things you’ve loved, but stopped making time for. Things you’ve had to put “on the back burner” but never seemed to make it up front again.
Oh man, what about those little “spin-art” pictures that I used to make? Enough, enough…ONE therapeutic revelation at a time. I just hope this doesn’t bite into my blogging time. NAHHHHH, not gonna happen!